Blogs.

Generally, my blogs are the same length - if they're my standard blog - give or take a paragraph here and there.
But I flit and fly from one subject to another, from blog to blog and sometimes within blogs even though there is one topic and subject I want to particualrly talk about for each blog.
When I read them back, I often spot mistakes and edit them, because I'm a geek and just could not cope with knowing I'd made a mistake and not edit it.

The thing I like about writing blogs though, is that I can say what I think and feel without worrying about someone will react to it. Sure, people can comment - it's not often they do but that suits me, I can cope with that - and disagree but they can answer back and put up an argument, fall out with me over them. It's a simple, easy way to let feelings and issues out, writing them all down so you remember them but they're not all floating around in my head, getting in the way of more important things.

I can always hear myself when I read my blogs back, I can hear my voice in my head reading them aloud, like when someones reading a letter and you can hear the person who wrote it reading it over the top of the film. I can hear the way I talk, the way I write, hte aptterns, my grammar and the way I phrase things and the sort of things I say, the topics I think and talk about, what I'm interested in pondering over.

I love writing blogs. I always feel better after writing them, content that I've let my ideas and opinions out, and pleased that I didn't have to discuss problems with people I love - no-one really knows my problems because the people reading these blogs - you - probably dont know me.

I realise that that in writing these blogs, I used the word "I" quite a lot. I know this is hypocritical but I really hate the word "I" and I hate using it. In my blogs it's not so bad, although I do try and change which person I speak in to vary it so I don't have to use "I" all of the time. I try very hard not to use it often in real life and I couldn't could the amount of time I think "oh, I just said it again" even though I know I use it a lot less often that some other people.

I'm not really sure why I'm writing this blog. Someone recently told me that they liked my blogs, that I should keep writing, that they were inspiring in a way. Although I would never have stopped anyway, I really appreciated the comments and it made me think how wonderful it would be to write a piece - or mutliple pieces - that inspired people, that lots of different people read and it touched them, made them stop for a second a think about it. Maybe that's just me, but I think it would be wonderful.

Anyway, I best be off. Things to do, people to see. Otherwise known as school.

Write to inspire. Aspire to write.

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