It's Christmas and a LOT of jibber jabber.

I can't sleep.
It's 2.20am on Christmas day, and I can't sleep.
Father Christmas definitely isn't going to come to me at this rate.

It's weird. Maybe it's just this night. Maybe it's because I haven't been getting up until midday. My boyfriend has had insomnia for the past month. I hope I don't catch it!

I'm listening to love songs by Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus. Slow, nice, happy songs that I could sleep to. And because I'm in that sort of mood.

Today was the first time in a week since me and boyfriend spoke. When I say spoke, I mean about four text messages each, but that's more than it has been all week. He says it's because texting makes him tired. Well, I guess there's no point questioning it.

Last week when we said bye (we are both at home for Christmas) I was SUCH a girl when we said goodbye. I got really upset. I don't even know why because we always spend weeks apart because of how far apart we live when we're at home. But anyway, I got really upset and acted like a proper girl, it was embarrassing.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. It's Christmas! And all of that is in the past. Maybe that's what I keep thinking about, that I'm bothered about us not talking or something he's said and that's why I can't sleep. Who knows.



My life is pretty much perfect. Apart from a few minor things that it is up to me to change, I am incredibly happy. So why do I just switch from one mood to another?
Isn't it funny what adding extra things into your body can do.

Yes, that's definitely what's on my mind.

This isn't a very Christmassy subject. I think I'll leave that for a different time.


Merry Christmas!
God bless us, one and all.
I hope you have a wonderful Christmas.

Sorry about the babbling - I'll explain soon!
Good night. I hope you sleep well and Father Christmas comes to you!
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Sex.

Last night, (at quite a bad time), my boyfriend said, "sex isn't such a big deal anymore."

I immediately assumed he was talking about himself and I because we'd got over the "honeymoon" period of our relationship, which I wasn't best pleased about, but he correctly my assumptions pretty quickly.
He only explained by saying one thing though, because he couldn't remember what the inital though process was to get him to the "sex isn't such a big deal" thing", and the initial thought was what he actually wanted to tell me.

Anyway, he explained by saying "people can just say, 'oh yeah, I spelt with him/her' just like that." He meant just casually, at randomers, at people walking down the street, at the mention of someone's name.

It's true really. I find it a bit bizarre because I don't throw myself around, and I never did, but I guess that's just not me. But I don't think sex is just a nothing thingm where it doesn't matter who or how many people you sleep with. But I guess a lot of people (probably starting of with students and expanding) do think that it doesn't matter at all, sex doesn't really mean anything. this view is probably speedily increasing too.

On the other hand, I know some people, albeit originally for religious reasons, believed in sex before marriage who have or are changing their minds once being in a serious and long relationship. They definitely wouldn't give away their virginity lightly, but knowing that the couple love each other and it could last forever can somethings be enough.
I like that idea, it's nice. Maybe impratical, but nice all the same.

Sex is something for couples. Something that they have together, and it is betwwen them and no-one else. Why would you want to make it so impersonal but having hundreds of names of your list? That would question the intimacy, meaning and (for want of a better word) niceness of the sex within your relationship.

I know that not very many men are going to agree. Not even my boyfriend would. But each to their own I guess.

I haven't got too long, and I'm quite tired so a complete blogged argument of both sides seems too much effort for me right now, so I'll just tell you what I think and leave.

I hope you appreciate sex, and you can enjoy it to it's full potential! After all, it is amazing. :)

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