8th Post.

This is my 8th blog this month to be posted. That means I've been thinking a lot. That means you can tell it's not been a great month for me.

Today I've been waiting. Waiting for people to reply to me, or to get in touch with me.
Two different people have text me today, two very good friends of mine. Both asking me questions. And now, after replying to them I'm waiting for their replies back to me. Now, I wouldn't mind, but it's kind of important I know what they mean and what their answers are because it effects me and my plans for the next few days. Why would you text someone and then just not reply to them when you're the one that started the conversation? I don't understand. Because I would never do that unless I had a perfectly good reason.

Maybe they've got good reasons. Maybe the battery in their phones have gone, or they just dropped it and it's broken. Or someone's called them - for more than 5 hours - and they can't text as they're on the phone. Or maybe they are someonwhere that they can't use their phone, or they're so busy that the can't find 1 single minute to text me back.
Or maybe they just couldn't be bothered, they just didn't want to.

I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know whether even to talk to them at all. If they were worth it, surely they'd talk to me. But maybe I'm the lucky one in all this, lucky they even talk to me at all. Maybe I'm the one that should be making all the effort because they're cooler, more popular, funnier, more intelligent, more talented, better.
And the worse thing is I couldn't say that to a soul because they'd contradict me and say I was wrong. Whoever they were, they'd all say the same. Whether it's true or not.

Some people change so much. Some people don't change at all. Right now, I can't figure out which one is worse. Not changing and learning from your mistakes, or changing so much that you become a completely different person, someone some of your friends don't recognise.

I give up. Let's just wait and see, eh?
My life is just too confusing.




Bring on 2010.
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