I Got In!

So, I'm going to university! Can you believe it?
Granted, it's not where I wanted to go, but it's my second choice and the course looks amazing. I've yet to find out about my accomodation, the part I've been dreading, but things are looking up at the moment so hopefully that will go in my favour too.

After writing loads of lists, "to do" lists and lists of things I need to take, buy or sort out, I need to actually start preparing to go. It's less than a month till I move out, which is a scary thought. I know I've been going on about living my life and dreams and getting away from here ever since I started writing this blog, but now it's actually happening! I can't wait, although I'm quite worried about the financial aspect of it seeing as I've never really had to deal with. I know I'll learn quickly but I haven't got enough money to start with. Hopefully I'll be able to work it out though.
Apart from the finances, there is only one thing that I'm not looking forward to and it's the only thing (not including money) stopping me from taking off and never coming back. You got it. Family. And friends. The people I know and love here, I am going to miss unbelievable amounts. I know they're all going to learn to live without me, I realise that doesn't mean they're going to stop caring about me, but it still means I'm not going to be quite as important as when I lived here. Maybe I'm selfish and paranoid. Maybe I'll meet people at university who are in the same situation as me and we'll become great friends and it won't matter so much.


There is one thing I haven't written down on my list. Do I tell the boy how I feel before I leave? I don't know why, but since April it has been something I wanted to get off my chest and tell him. I know it won't go anywhere. Maybe the feelings will go when I tell him? Or should I not tell him, hope they go and all will become clear when I see him when I come home for Christmas. I'll have a few months to move on and when I see him next I'll know how I feel about it, whether this is just a phase, (a long one, granted, but still a phase).
I'll think about it. And maybe consult the girls.


This one is just a bit of an update really. I haven't written much this month because so much has been going on. Birthdays, holidays, my parents being off, schools grades and sorting out university.

I hope you're all happy. Right now, I am.
Things are looking positive.

Smile. x