Seeing as I'm 18, this year was supposedly the last time I was to go away with my parents. My Mom needed a holiday and unfortunately my Dad couldn't come with us but he flew my Mom and me off to Tenerife for 8 days to get us away for a while to destress and relax.
On the way there, there was a little girl who must have only been about 4 or 5 sitting behind us. I don't like planes, they affect my head and ears more it seems more than anyone else, it's so painful and I dread flying even though I want to get to the destination we're heading to. Anyway, the little girl sitting behind me giggled everytime something that I would normally hate (like her ears going weird and painful or popping, or her tummy going, or anything else that flying may cause) and it made me smile, hearing her enjoying herself and hearing that cute little laugh. The flight wasn't so bad anymore because she made me smile. She doesn't even know me or know I exist but she made my day that day.
When I was away, I was willing my phone to go off. I had a few names in particular that I would have liked to have seen a message from but I really wanted it to go off so that I knew someone did care, and some did miss me. It took a few days but towards the end I had a few different people make me smile because they made my phone buzz.
I feel as though we were flown away from reality for a week and now we've just crash landed back home, one day away from the day that is going to change all of our lives as we know them forever. Results Day tomorrow.
I'm glad to be home, I missed my Dad, the boys, the dogs and my best friends.I wish we were still in Tenerife though, with the beautiful, beautiful people that surrounded us there. One in particular. Wow, he was the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on. It's a shame I won't get to see him again.
I've always wanted to spend my life travelling, going around to all sorts of different places, but this holiday made me think "will I fit in?" Whenever I go away, the people I see are always so beautiful, handsome, cute, pretty, lovely and charming to look at and it makes me think that I'll be the odd one out. Why are the majority of Spanish people gorgeous? Maybe it's the tan, maybe it's an illusion because I'm on holiday and when I'm on holiday everything is always 10 times more beautiful. But maybe they are just a prettier nation. Either way, everyone I saw in sunny Tenerife seemed to be beautiful. Maybe that's even more reason to want to go travelling. But it's made me think that now more than ever I just want to get away again. Anywhere. Just away. Preferably somewhere beautiful, warm and interesting when the people are gorgeous so I can people watch all day. But if not that just away somewhere I don't know that I can explore will do. Anywhere.
When I was away, I took a notepad that my friend got me with me and whenever I was alone (when my Mom was in the shower or I'd managed to slip away and go back to the hotel room for a bit without making her think I wanted to get away from her because that wasn't the point, I'd scribble any ideas down that I had to write a blog or just a small thing I wanted to record and tell so that I didn't forget. I had ideas for 3 or 4 blogs but I looking back, what was important a week ago doesn't seem so important now so I've left a few things out and squashed the other ideas into one blog, this one.
Now, I'm going to see my friends. I have some questiosns I need to ask about university, life and boys. My friends' opinions matter to me a lot and I know they're all truthful, genuine and sensible, they'll give the cons and pros and I know they'll be able to help me. So for now, as they would say in Tenerife, adios.
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