Is letting someone in a good thing? The unpredictability of the future makes it unsafe to letting someone in, let someone get to know you properly - the real you, and really love and trust them with everything.
It means having someone to talk to. Having someone to confide in, seek advice from, having someone to help you with your problems and worries. Having this person could mean knowing you have support, make you more confident and happy knowing that there is always someone there that you can go to, fall back and and trust.
Maybe it's good to hide emotions so you dont have to let people in when you dont want to. People would never know how you feel so they'd never ask if you're okay. Not letting anyone in at all means being in complete control of your emotions, decisions and life, no-one knows that they're influencing you apart from you, you don't have to take into consideration someone else's opinion and you're not risking your privacy.
But what if you want to let someone in and you just don't know how? If you've shielded yourself off for that long that you've forgotten what it means to let someone in, having someone know you as well as they could.
I was talking to someone and defending "not letting people in" and saying it was a good thing because it's not something I can do really easily and I think it would be great not feeling you have to tell anyone what you think or how you feel.
How many peole do you truly trust?
I only really trust one or two people. When I tell people stuff, I tell them what happened, but very occasionally how I feel about it. That's private and I don't see why people need to know. But sometimes it's good to talk about how you feel - it either emphasises the emotions or makes them fade, which sometimes could be want you need.
Right now, there is only one person that I have truly let it. I've let other people in in the past but we've drifted and changed - none of us are the same as we used to be.
How many people you trust do you trust and how do this compare to how many people you want to trust?
I think it's good to have one or two people that you can really trust and talk to. Telling one person everything isn't ideal for me because it means that person would know you as well as you know you - but if there are two people you really trust, you can share what you want to tell them and talk about between then two people then neither will know everything and you've still been able to talk about the things you wanted or needed to.
I completely respect you, and I care more for you that you will ever know, but I won't let you in. Because you won't let me in. If there's one thing you've taught me, it's that you have to be in control of your own life and emotion, you have to be able to control how you feel and who you feel it for.
I can live with the happiness of knowing that you're happy - because there is nothing else I can do, despite what you said. You helped me. As long as youre happy, that's all that matters.
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