Small World...

It seems ages since I last wrote. I suppose it has been quite a few weeks.
Something has changed for me. I'm just not sure what.

It's weird how small the world is. I've met someone knew and I found out we have a few mutual friends that are really random and I would never have thought. I've found a lot of this recently, knwoing someone who knows someone who knows the person I know. Or maybe just knowing someone who knows someone I know. That sounds so confusing but it's quite simple when you think about it. It is a really small world...

I wanted to make a point of that, but I don't know why. I think what comes around goes around because it is a small world and everyone always finds out the truth eventually.

Right now, I'm sitting listening to love songs and sag songs and beautiful songs (mainly by the Beatles) and thinking about life and what is to become of us. Oh, and a boy.

The majority of my friends and I have finally sent off our UCAS forms and my friends have been getting lots of offers. I'm not worried that I haven't had any yet, but give it a few weeks and I might start to wonder. But for now, I'm just going to be over the moon for my friends who are getting conditional offers and auditions all over the place to go to the universities of their choice. It's so strange to think that this time next year I should (hopefully) be sitting in my room in the halls of my university writing a blog about what has become of us, what situation I'm in with my friends (new and old), boys, family, university and life in general. I can't wait for the future, but it is a terrifying thought. What will become of us all?


Then, there is the boy. As always. This time I'm not sure what's going on. The whole forbidden fruit still applies, but not as strongly as it did because he's seeing someone and I knew it would never happen anyway. But this new friend I've made. He seems interested but then I wonder if it's only for one thing. He hasn't text me back today and for the first time, it's bothering me. It frustrates me that I don't know as much about him as I'd like. That's kind of hypocritical really, seeing as I'm quite held back at letting people get to know me. But I think that deserves a whole blog post of it's own in the future - letting people in.
I'm sure there is a reason that he hasn't text back, I'm sure he's a nice guy and it wouldn't be the end of the world if I did let him in, and I'm sure even though I know these things are true I'm still going to carry on the way I am.



The inevitable will happen. It's a small world.

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