I know this is my second post today, but I have two things to talk about because of last week and they're quite different, both important to me and I think they deserve their own blog each. This one, I think, might be slightly different to my normal ramblings. This one might actually have a story.
This one is dedicated to one person, which is a bit ironic considering I really hope he doesn't read it. I'd be so embarrassed - and I'd never hear the end of it.
It's really strange how things change, how people change, how they grow and adapt and learn.
I've known this person for years, since I was about 10. We hated each other. We had different groups of friends and we just argued everytime we spoke. It went on for a few years like this. Then when I was about 14 (I don't say when we were because he's a year younger than I am), we were still arguing, but it had become a bit more light hearted, a bit less spiteful. Now I'm 17, and we're still arguing but now it's just a joke and I'd rather argue with him than talk to a lot of other people. He makes me laugh so much and despite the arguing front, we get on quite well.
At the golf club, in the junior section, a team of 5 players and 2 reserves play against other local clubs in the league. It might not sound that great to a non-golfer, but they are the highlight of my golfing career. It is a truly great experience playing against another player from the oposing team, playing the game you love, seeing your teammates around the course, asking how they're doing and offering them encouragement, win or lose. As you'd probably expect, the majority are lads, so I'm the only girl playing. This makes it for me a lot of the time too, I love the people, I never stop laughing.
This year, again, I'm playing for the team I so love to play for. But this year the one I love to hate is captain, and picks who plays. This year we've been getting on better than we ever have, maybe even been given a few compliments here and there.
Yesterday, we were sitting in the back of the car on the way to Beau Desert Golf Club, ready to play and he he was giving me a pep talk about winning. We were arguing, surprise, and having a laugh. After the match, (the team lost, everyone in our team lost apart from our number 1 who halved), he made his speech and as we were leaving, he started teasing me about a few things as per usual.
We've been friends a long time, I trust him, and even though our relationship has never really been one of deep conversations and sharing secrets, underneath the banter, I could go to him if I needed to and vice versa.
My friend and I have always had this whole thing of arguing is flirting, and we call it "flirty banter". It happens all the time with people that I play golf with, because I'm a girl and guys underestimate me so we argue. All along she's been saying this about me and this guy. It might be true, but I never saw it that way as we were just friends.
The past year or so he's been saying that I fancied him, which I played along with or played on it, more so this year than before. The past month we've been talking loads and I don't know if he seriously thinks I like him or not. It doesn't bother me either way.
This year, as I say, we've been getting on better than ever, and I can see it now, the flirty banter.
Yesterday on the way home, we were both sitting in the back of the car again and he put one ear phone in, gave me the other and showed me that he taste in music wasn't quite as bad as I thought it was. I leaning close to him because he kept moving and pulling the earphones, but it was really uncomfortable so I kept putting my head on his shoulder and then getting up. Apart from shaking hands at the end of a game, we've never really hugged or anything like that. I think something changed then. And we were texting later on, he wanted to talk to me.
It really made me smile, I smile when I think about it. Which is kind of bad seeing as it could never happen, him and me.
I would never admit it to anyone, that I liked him, just in case. If he found out he'd tease me about it all of the time. I do have a bit of a soft spot for him. Maybe one day it will be more. Who knows what the future brings...?
I don't know why I wanted to write a blog about that. I think I wanted to make a point of how things and people change. I have another example of it, of school friends who haven't seen each other for ages and they hated each other, but they met at a party this weekend both laughed about how they didn't get on at school and they ended up having a really good night.
It's weird how people adapt and change. The unexpected happens. I would never have expected to have this guy as a good friend a few years ago. But I think you can always get a positive out of things that change. Whether for better or for worse, in the long term you can always learn something from it. I think that's the most important thing.
Things change. People change. Time changes.
Learn that change is good - or learn from change that is good, or bad.
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