Dedicated to you...

Well, the time has come. I suppose it was only a matter of time...
This one is for the boys.
Or maybe it's for the girls who are complaining about guys.
Maybe it's just for me so that I can complain about guys without really having to talk about it.

I think it's strange how different people see different situations in different lights. Like... how big can an age gap be before it's started to get weird? Or how close to people have to be relation wise, and how much does 'in law' make a difference? Everyone has different opinions on the subject. To be honest I'm quite open minded about everyone else having big ages gaps or being close, but that might make me a hypocrite because I could never see myself doing it. This could be because of how I was raised, I know what my family expect, and they are so overprotective that if they didn't approve then the person I was with wouldn't be allowed through the door.

It's the same every time, when you like somebody. Every time you get a text or call or email, you want it to be that one person, every time you hear a song on the radio you think of them, you hope you pass them in the street - however unlikely the chances are.
I'm playing a few songs over and over again at the moment. I do like the music, I really do, the band is really talented, but the real reason that I have got to like the songs so much is because I have listened to them a lot... The real reason I've done that is because of the band itself, because of someone in it.
I didn't start liking the guy because he was in a band. I was pleasantly suprised when I found out actually, I didn't expect it. I liked how I knew I made him get a bit worked up when I looked at him. But obviously, he's out of bounds. He would be, if I like him.

How do we move from one person to the next? I'm tyring to move on from someone else. Not the band guy, someone much closer to me than that. Someone I am strictly just friends with. It's heartbreaking really, unrequited love, like or lust - whatever you want to call it - but everyone brushes it off their shoulder because there are more important things. I did what I was supposed to, I did what he told me to, and it's been about 3 months since we even mentioned anything more than friends.
People say that you should get over someone if it's over, or if it's not going to happen. But it's just not that easy. Sometimes you just can't, however hard you try, but sometimes you just don't want to.

Which do you think is worse... Being with someone and then them ending it (at least you knew you were good enough for a while, you knew that they did like you and things change all the time, but it was good while it lasted), or liking someone who never likes you back?
I'm undecided. Both are heartbreaking. I'm more familiar with one than the other though.

Love and lust are so unexplainable. Why would you like someone who you are most unlikely to ever actually get with? It is never our choice who we fall for though. Nothing is impossible though. I think people should dream big and never give up. However unlikely something is, there is always a small chance that it could happen. Maybe you'll be "the exception".

I believe there is someone for everyone. And I believe that everything happens for a reason.
Some things are just meant to be.

I wish for everyone true happiness in love.


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