Is it such a crime that I don't know what I want to do with my life at 17? It's a bg world out there and there a lot of desicions to be made. Do they all need to be made when we're so young?
There are so many paths that we could take, how are we meant to know which one is right? Surely we have our whole life to travel down them all and see which one we want to venture down for a second time.
All my life, I've always wanted to try out so many things and I've never really been sure what I actually wanted to do with them. I've always been looking for "my thing". The thing that I love doing, I'm passionate about, and I'm good at. I always wanted to do Maths at uni because I was good at it, I found it fairly interesting and I didn't know anything else that I could do. That was until last year when I decided actually I wasn't so good at Maths as I and everyone thought after I got my AS grades. Then I decided I wanted to do English. I've been through phases of wanting to do things I really do love and that I am good at, but these things are so difficult to actually persue a career in that my parents and teachers persuade me not to, and I'm too scared to go for something I might not achieve that will leave me with very little and a lot of debt. These things are photography - which I love, I'm fairly good at and I'm very, very keen to learn, and musical theatre - but that's strictly an extra curricular, my escape and the hobby that I adore, the one that keeps me sane and helps me let go.
Now, I'm not sure I really want to do English, but it's a bit late now because I'm being pressured into getting my application for university completed within the next few weeks, which is really difficult because I'm trying to write a personal statement about what I want to do. But I don't even know what I want to do.
My brother is 25, and he doesn't know what he wants to do with his life. Why are people laying into us about it? My parents always ask him whether he's going to stay in the line of work he's in forever. He doesn't know. For the time being, he'll have to because he doesn't know what other options he has.
We're still young! We've got our whole lives ahead of us. Our whole lives to decide what we want to do, when and how. And who with. We might not even have met the people that we want to spend out lives with yet. Next year I'm going to be leaving this town to see the rest of the country and hopefully after that the rest of the world. And along the way I'm pretty sure I'm going to met a lot of new people. Amazing new people that I'll want to stay in touch with, and if that doesn't happen, people I know I'll remember for the rest of my life.
Is it so bad that we don't know what we want to do? Did you know what you wanted to do when you were 17 (if you're older than that)? And if you're not older than that then don't worry if you don't know at 17 - I know loads of people that were or are in the same boat as you.
If you decide what you want to do so young, and you plan your life around in, where are you going to fit in trying new things? How do you know that's what you're meant to do in life, how do you know there's not something else that you're amazing and and you love, but you just haven't tried it yet?
I'm sorry if you're disappointed in me for not knowing what I want to do, I'm sorry if there's things you expect of me that I haven't done, and I'm sorry if I don't achieve the things you want me to in life. But I need to find my own hopes, dreams an achievements, doing things my own way, learning from my own mistakes and being the person I am, the person that I want to be - not the one that you want me to be.
"Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life... The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t." Baz Luhrman.
Everyone around me is turning 18 or older. Should be know at 18 what we want to do? Or is 18 too late?
You're got your whole life to try out everything you ever wanted. It's never too late. Never.
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