Waiting For The Summer.

I can't wait for the summer. The summer is a time of relaxing, doing whatever you want, whenever you want and not having to worry about anything except making sure your suncream is topped up. (I made that mistake last year.)

Do you know when you have problems, and they're really bothering you, but then you think... 'hang on a minute, you're being pathetic, there are so many people out there who have much worse problems than you' and then you feel bad for even thinking that your problems were difficult and upsetting?
So, then, because you think your problems are petty and pathetic, you don't tell anyone about them. Well, that just makes it worse because not telling people means that you can't get them off your chest. And if you don't tell anyone and pretend you're fine, well, what if youre good at acting like you're fine and no-one notices? Or maybe they do notice but they don't want to ask? Well that just makes you feel even worse because you think that nobody cares.

Or is it worse having people notice, for them to keep on asking and asking until you finally tell them, and then they basically say 'oh, I've found out now so I can change the subject or end the conversation.' They don't actually care what you're upset about, they just want to know the gossip.
Yeah, that boy... He was the one that did that. Made me feel GREAT.
My head is telling me that he's an idiot and is lying and leading me on. My heart is saying that he's lovely really.



All I want right now is for these problems to change, to go away, or maybe just to change in some slight way so they're not the same boring problems that are on your mind all the time. Desicions need to be made, but how are you ever going to know which is the right desicion? And what if you know a desicion needs to be made, but you don't actually know what it needs to be made about?

All I want right now is for the carefree lifestyle and loves of the summer to come along and make me smile. Just for a while.




Bring on Swindon. Let it be what we're looking for.

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